thinking on things - part 1

Last night, thoughts and emotions swirled around, quite at their own liberty. I felt like a jigsaw puzzle inside.

He sent from above, He took me; He drew me out of many waters. he delivered me from my strong enemy, from those who hated me, for they were too strong for me. They confronted me in the day of my calamity, but the Lord was my support. He also brought me out into a broad place; He delivered me because He delighted in me.

Over the past month, my opinions have sidled toward the radical end. Relatively speaking, of course. Tame for some, but definitely radical for me. In discussions with sisters and friends, I have stood up for pink hair, tattoos, nose rings, and words across the backside of women's pants. I'm not sure why. Do I suddenly require a good and valid reason for what is considered acceptable and what is not, or am I feeling rakish - like some small deep inner part of me wants pink hair herself?

I don't know. Whatever might be the cause, I have been arguing for revolutionary - as far as my conservative Christian circle is concerned - ideas.

Until last night. I was blog surfing, and came across the blogger profile of a transsexual person. Suddenly, all I wanted to do was crawl into my mommy's lap and be completely ignorant of the world. Miss Stand-up-for-the-weirdo was suddenly feeling a bit shaky in her former stance.

Being the sheltered, homeschooled, country bumpkin that I am, my mind cannot even wrap itself around such a twisted idea as "female to male" persons. So unused to such unusualness, that I felt slapped in the face. By a blogger profile. What's up with that?

Feeling excessively unnerved, I went up to my room, turned on Nichole Nordeman, and opened my Bible. What I read was the above passage. It doesn't seem to directly apply to rock punks or homosexuals, but in the midst of my mind whirling in a spiral of questions, God simply says "I delight in you." Even though I am grappling with how a person would relate to or act towards a bisexual person, God still "sent from above, delivered me from my strong enemy," and "delivered me because He delighted in me."

With my feet planted on that promise, I can never go astray.